We're fast coming towards the end of 2018 and with only a couple of weeks to go I've started reflecting on the year. I was out for a walk with the dogs this morning when my mind started wandering and started going over the past 12 months. In all honesty it's not been a good year. For a number of different reasons it's been a tough one and if I'm completely honest it's because I haven't shown up. Financially, emotionally, spiritually. I've not ended the year on the high I thought I would but I have learned a lot this year from my journey, I've made mistakes, I've made changes and I'm still here. I'm also taking time every day to see the positives and be grateful for what I have.

Lessons I've learned this year

If you don't put in, you don't get out.

To sum it up I've been lazy this year. Big things happened last year and I assumed the tables had turned and my luck was in, boy was I wrong! I rested on my laurels and waited for things to happen instead of going out and making them happen. Opportunities didn't come flocking to my door and I didn't go and make them happen like I did last year.

You can't pour from an empty cup

There have been times over the past 12 moths that I've run on empty. Empty of inspiration, direction, nourishment, self care. I've expected myself to be able to give to others without giving to myself. From teaching yoga, to being a mom and wife, business owner and whatever other hat I may be wearing on any given day I've learned that I need to prioritise myself to be able to prioritise others.

Baby steps are still steps

You don't have to do everything at once. I decided at the beginning of the year I wanted to switch to a vegan diet and dived in head first cutting out all animal products without doing any research and ended up not eating properly, feeling crap and ditching it. For the last 6 months, I've gradually started to reduce my animal products while educating myself along the way. I'm not 100% vegan, I am however consuming a lot less animal products, taking baby steps and making progress every day.

It's ok to say no!

If something doesn't feel right it's probably not right for you. And that's ok! I've been invited to countless events and functions this year that previously I would have gone to because I didn't want to refuse invitations. I'd end up going, often forking out for an expensive train ticket or outfit, get to the event and wonder what I was doing there (often finding an excuse to leave early). I was scared to say no to anything in case I offended anyone. In retrospect I would have been better politely declining than being somewhere I didn't want to be!

If you want something ask

Be that the universe, a friend, a colleague, a partner. Things won't just drop into your lap. There isn't such a thing as the right place at the right time. It takes effort and quite frankly balls! This can be applied in so many areas of life. I wanted to work with one of my favourite brands so I contacted them and asked them. Sure it doesn't always end as amazingly well and you'll get two, maybe three times as many no's as yeses but perseverance pays off.

I'm a big believer of choosing and making your own destiny, I just haven't put my theory into practice so well this year. For one reason or another I've let things cloud me, get in the way or take priority. Although I don't believe you should wait to act, changes can be made immediately, you don't need to wait for a new month or a new year to turn things around, I will be glad to see the back of 2018 but I am thankful for the lessons it has taught me