It's Thursday, I wake up full of beans and bound down the stairs (ok slowly meander) and decide to start my day with a gentle yoga flow to set me up for a good day. In my head that sounded amazing, in reality it sucked!
I usually practise in the afternoon or evening when my mind is full of work and whatever the day has brought to clear my mind and help me focus on the rest of the day but today I decided to try to start the day with a clear mind to see if it brought any more productivity.
I started my gentle wake up flow with the help of Oneoeight.tv and first downward dog in and my recurring shoulder injury niggled, I couldn't hold my lunges for longer than 5 seconds and my boat pose was more sinking titanic than strong yogi.
I started to get down heartened, to beat myself up for not being able to perform aswell as I normally do but then something stopped me.
I've been really pushing myself recently to nail my arm balances, pushing myself further and further out of my comfort zone and trying balances and flows I've never done before let alone ben able to perform properly. I'm slightly neglected the reason I practise yoga, the way I flow to ground me and calm me. To energise my body and to enable me to feel connected to my mind and body. I'd become caught up in the world of beautiful poses of inversions on instagram and forgotten the basics.
Yesterday I spent a good hour practising a fallen angel and pushing and pushing my body, ignoring the niggles in my wrist and shoulder, determined to perfect the pose and not honouring my body the way I should.
Lesson learned. One bad practice doesn't mean failure. It means my body was telling me to take it easy. Telling me to listen to it. It knows the answers, I need to trust what it's telling me and not let my head get in the way.
It's time to go back to basics and remember the reason why I fell in love with yoga, reconnect with myself and stop competing and pushing.
It's so easy to get caught up in something and forget the real reason behind the love and passion and sometimes it takes going back to basics to realise this again. It's not a competition, there's no end date, life is a journey full of learnings and this is one lesson I've learned
In love and light